Today is my one week milestone since having my cochlear implant activated, and I have to say that silence is bliss. The noise and confusion is crushing. Not to say that I haven’t experienced some touching discoveries and moments of celebration, but at this point I will say that the frustration definitely outweighs the blessings. If I ever knew it, I had forgotten the world is so loud and noisy. I had no idea that I am so noisy!
I keep hearing this sound that NEVER goes away, no matter how quite the environment is. Honestly, it seems to get louder as my surroundings get quieter.. I thought it was something wrong with my implant or processor, imagine my surprise when I finally realized that what I was hearing was my own breathing… I never would have thought.
Another shocking discovery: how loud I am at meal times. I have to turn my implant off to eat! I sent out an apology to my family and friends and thanked them for all these years they have put up with my crunching and smacking. That is unconditional love at it’s finest. I was also blown away with how much noise I make when I walk! (Maybe I need to see a podiatrist or something.)
Another discovery: clocks make a sound when the hands move. And credit card machine buttons beep when you push on them! The first time I turned on a water faucet, I must have jumped at least a foot into the air! I can finally hear my turn signal clicking when I forget to turn it off after a lane change. I used to love rolling down the windows when I drove, but now the volume just overwhelms me.
Some of my favorite new sounds are kisses and nail clippers! My little guy must be getting so tired of all my kisses, what a delightful sound!
I am pushing forward. This journey is certainly not for the faint of heart.